Toxic Jesus

A Journey from Holy Shit to Spiritual Healing

Do you associate religion and spirituality with guilt, shame, or abuse?

Uncover the dark power of toxic spirituality and its lingering influence on your life… and learn how to heal from it and access a new intimacy with yourself and a renewed, free and life-sustaining spirituality.

Raised in a strict fundamentalist family, Marc-Henri Sandoz Paradella studied theology in Geneva and then worked as a successful pastor in an evangelical church. After 15 years of pursuing this life mission, he came to realize the narrow-mindedness of his faith and the sufferings and frailties that were hidden behind the cover of religion. Then he decided to resign. However, it was only years later, as a result of dramatic life circumstances, that he became fully aware of the hidden dynamics of toxic spirituality that were still poisoning him from the inside. He shares his experiences with you, and describes how they became the portal to a deep inner healing and a renewed spiritual experience.

Toxic Jesus is a thought-provoking book rooted in the author’s deep personal experience. It shows how every religion can become toxic and promote shame, guilt and repression. It exposes how the poison of toxic spirituality hides behind religious façades and affects every person exposed to it. Finally, it guides you through the path of recovering from the damages caused by toxic spirituality.

Through this book, you will discover:

  • How to discern and address the influence of toxic spirituality on your life
  • How toxic spirituality is affecting your connection with yourself, with others and with reality
  • How to create a more intimate and tender relationship with yourself
  • How to regain full access to your intuition, strengthen your self-confidence and experience renewed life energy
  • How to build a free and non-religious spiritual experience that provides you resources with which to face the challenges of life, rest and peace even in the midst of difficult circumstances and a sense of purpose rooted in your innermost being

Toxic Jesus is the eye-opener you need to reconsider your spiritual history. It will help you to transmute the poison of toxic spirituality into healing and growth. If you like deep thoughts expressed in simple words and rooted in life experience, then you’ll love this book.


I just finished reading Toxic Jesus tonight. Wow. So much of what the author describes feeling and going through I feel like I’ve been working through myself the past few years, especially recognizing these oppressive Jesuses that were easy to cling to because they were what was familiar. To Marc-Henri: Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences; I am thankful for your vulnerability and honesty. His writing and journey is inspiring and I wish I’d had this book (and many other resources) when I was growing up. – Charles

Like other reviewers, I had preconceived notions about where this book would lead. In fact, I had hopes of how it would culminate. But I have to admit to being surprised by the undulating story of struggle and spirituality that Toxic Jesus offered. I liked, and I bet subsequent readers will like as well, the framing of incarnations of Jesus in the author’s mind and journey. There was a necessary and gripping process that he needed to experience to find what god really is to him. This is a great, unique and moving book to read. – Eric

I must say that the book wasn’t exactly what I was expecting, as the title initially led me to believe that the author may have abandoned his spirituality. Instead we are led on a journey to a renewed and revised spirituality and connection with the divine. I applaud the author for taking us on an intensely personal walk through time with him as he develops new and meaningful connections with himself and the world around him. – David

I found the title of this book to be quite provocative, so I wasn’t sure what to expect. I half expected an anti Christian tirade, but this book is far from that.
Marc-Henri has written a very personal and painful account of the influence of toxic spirituality on his life and how he started questioning very deeply held beliefs to find inner peace. It is a sincere attempt at smashing through religious dogma to find the essence of what it means to be a Christian with a free and curious mind.
It is both courageous and very moving and I highly recommend it. – Ian

About the Author
Marc-Henri Sandoz Paradella, therapist and spiritual mentor, writer, theologist, sociologist, and former pastor who freed himself from religion.





Published by Apocryphile Press

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